Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Yep. Thats right. I am a worry wart. I am also OCD. These are not good combinations people.
Sometimes I worry about the littlest things. Like getting all the laundry done or getting the house cleaned up. I play over and over things in my head that I need to do. This is why I make lists for myself. I am an insane list maker. & I love checking things off the list. (I know I have a problem)
I am trying to get this in check before I have children one day. I really don't want to be one of those control freak moms. Its a daily task to work on trying to break my worry habit. Sometimes I worry about the future, like one day when I do have children how will I keep up with everything? When will we buy a house? Will we find the house & land we really want? Am I a good wife? Do I show my husband enough that I love him?.... & the list goes on. I hope not the only crazy one around here!
I also think this is a woman thing. Not that men don't have anything to worry about obviously. But being a wife and/or a mom is tough stuff sometimes! (not that I know how being a mom is yet but I imagine..)
But the bottom line is..... You have to give it to God. I struggle with this on the regular. I get to worrying about stuff and I just keep thinking about it and try to think of ways I can fix it. I'm a fixer. & a quick fixer! I need it done now. Off my plate. On to the next one. But this isn't how life works obviously. This isn't how God works either. He wants you to let him handle it. Step back & say here God you got this. I don't want to be in control.
You can worry about the littlest thing to the biggest. But in Gods eyes He wants it all. Give it all to Him. I am speaking to myself too. I want to give my worries to God every day. Because He can see ahead into the future. He knows where I'm going. He knows the plan He has for me. (Jeremiah 29:11) I don't need to know all the ins & outs of my future. I just need to trust God that He knows what He's doing. (ya know because sometimes we humans think we know better... we ain't got a clue!)
So if you're like me its a daily struggle. I am a constant work in progress. We all are. All we can do is try & keep going forward.
Here is a little encouragement from Pinterest! Some of my faves.